There’s nothing more refreshing then a new year. For me, Christmas can stand down because New Years Day has a certain excitement that can’t be reached. It proves to me that I made it through one hex of a year, and you know what, I’m gonna kill another.
If I’m honest, I love fresh starts.
However, I feel as if I need to wrap up 2019, and this decade, in some of my most notable moments.
- I became dual-enrolled, and received B’s in the two classes I did take. (I only took two because I was just trying it out). I’m proud to say I paid for a majority of each class and their requirements.
- I dyed my hair. This is big because I’m not really a rebellious kid-I’m kind of a stiff neck, but this was one rebellious thing I wanted to do. So I begged my mom to let me do it before I was eighteen, and she agreed. I did have it professionally done because I’m a clumsy hot mess and I didn’t feel like cleaning out the tub or trying to fix my hair if something went wrong.
- I was officially employed for one whole year.
- I started working in both retail and food services, and have in fact realized that I do not want to do either for the rest of my life.
- I got my license.
- I reached 165 followers (and counting, here’s to ya’ll)!
- I went self-hosted.
- I joined a church I’m truly comfortable with.
- I found my writing niche.
- I met some great, real friends. Even if they are online, I finally found a group of friends that I feel comfortable enough not to have to filter myself.
- I stopped trying to live my life pleasing others, or proving them wrong.
- I stopped trying to be better than everybody else and just decided to be the best me that I can be.
- I accepted that the emotional/mental abuse I went through as a child is not something I should blame myself for; nor should I try to bottle up the emotions that come with remembering.
- I’ve recovered from major past trauma and events, and I’m finally ready for the next step-healing.
In wrap-maybe I didn’t do my New Years Resolutions, but I sure did pretty well. I will say, when I talk about emotional and mental abuse, I’m talking about some extended family members. Earlier this year, I had a breakdown and had to admit what I was feeling from it. It was a lot to admit, but ultimately, I’ve spent a lot of the year trying to talk with someone about it, and just be honest. You know, recover-thank God for my brother and parents; couldn’t have done it without their support. I’m moving on from the abuse (again, strictly emotional and mental, but definitely a dark point in my life).
So with the conclusion of that, here’s to Twenty-Twenty.
The year I Heal.
The year I step outside the box.
Looking for something special to treat yourself to? Try the Fabfitfun box. Fabfitfun is a subscription box that ships seasonally, giving you a bare minimum box worth of $200.I loved the Winter box-everything I received I’m using/have used, and can honestly say I don’t regret it-the blanket I got alone makes me happy-and the speaker; I was just so stoked. You can check it out here.
Even though it’s late, I will be posting a review for it; I loved the box that much-I got some incredibly aesthetic photos-a rarity for me, I don’t usually. (Seriously, I was so proud I showed my mom like it was artwork or something).
To get a discount use the code SOCOLD (even though where I live we had a cold Thanksgiving, and Christmas was seventy-stinking-degrees), and get $10 off your purchase.
Also, about the sponsors, I really appreciate the fact that nobody’s lost their mind about this-I wouldn’t do it, however, I’m trying to turn my blog into something that I can keep up in college, and even the smallest amount helps there.
Anyway, see you next year!