2020-The Year of Healing

There’s nothing more refreshing then a new year. For me, Christmas can stand down because New Years Day has a certain excitement that can’t be reached. It proves to me that I made it through one hex of a year, and you know what, I’m gonna kill another.

If I’m honest, I love fresh starts.

However, I feel as if I need to wrap up 2019, and this decade, in some of my most notable moments.

  1. I became dual-enrolled, and received B’s in the two classes I did take. (I only took two because I was just trying it out). I’m proud to say I paid for a majority of each class and their requirements.
  2. I dyed my hair. This is big because I’m not really a rebellious kid-I’m kind of a stiff neck, but this was one rebellious thing I wanted to do. So I begged my mom to let me do it before I was eighteen, and she agreed. I did have it professionally done because I’m a clumsy hot mess and I didn’t feel like cleaning out the tub or trying to fix my hair if something went wrong.
  3. I was officially employed for one whole year.
  4. I started working in both retail and food services, and have in fact realized that I do not want to do either for the rest of my life.
  5. I got my license.
  6. Sponsors!!
  7. I reached 165 followers (and counting, here’s to ya’ll)!
  8. I went self-hosted.
  9. I joined a church I’m truly comfortable with.
  10. I found my writing niche.
  11. I met some great, real friends. Even if they are online, I finally found a group of friends that I feel comfortable enough not to have to filter myself.
  12. I stopped trying to live my life pleasing others, or proving them wrong.
  13. I stopped trying to be better than everybody else and just decided to be the best me that I can be.
  14. I accepted that the emotional/mental abuse I went through as a child is not something I should blame myself for; nor should I try to bottle up the emotions that come with remembering.
  15. I’ve recovered from major past trauma and events, and I’m finally ready for the next step-healing.

In wrap-maybe I didn’t do my New Years Resolutions, but I sure did pretty well. I will say, when I talk about emotional and mental abuse, I’m talking about some extended family members. Earlier this year, I had a breakdown and had to admit what I was feeling from it. It was a lot to admit, but ultimately, I’ve spent a lot of the year trying to talk with someone about it, and just be honest. You know, recover-thank God for my brother and parents; couldn’t have done it without their support. I’m moving on from the abuse (again, strictly emotional and mental, but definitely a dark point in my life).

So with the conclusion of that, here’s to Twenty-Twenty.

The year I Heal.

The year I step outside the box.

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Looking for something special to treat yourself to? Try the Fabfitfun box. Fabfitfun is a subscription box that ships seasonally, giving you a bare minimum box worth of $200.I loved the Winter box-everything I received I’m using/have used, and can honestly say I don’t regret it-the blanket I got alone makes me happy-and the speaker; I was just so stoked. You can check it out here.

Even though it’s late, I will be posting a review for it; I loved the box that much-I got some incredibly aesthetic photos-a rarity for me, I don’t usually. (Seriously, I was so proud I showed my mom like it was artwork or something).

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To get a discount use the code SOCOLD (even though where I live we had a cold Thanksgiving, and Christmas was seventy-stinking-degrees), and get $10 off your purchase.

Also, about the sponsors, I really appreciate the fact that nobody’s lost their mind about this-I wouldn’t do it, however, I’m trying to turn my blog into something that I can keep up in college, and even the smallest amount helps there.

Anyway, see you next year!

Published by H.A.Ivy

I mean, to be frank with you do people actually read these? Undecided. I do know it's an excellent thing to write when you're trying to procrastinate from literally anything else. Technically I'm supposed to write on these for another obligation but you know what-we'll procrastinate on that one too. Mainly because people will be reading and judging that one. Though if you've gotten this far it's probably because you're genuinely hoping to find information about me, and to put it simply, there's not much to tell. I'm a fairly average person who prefers to have panic attacks about small things, and then when something's big I say "ah screw it" and move on with my life because who has time to dwell, not me that's who. Not with college and other stressful life requirements like not procrastinating on things. But in all seriousness, if you have made it this far, kudos to you. I'm H.A.Ivy, or Ivy, or Hazi or random girl that should shut up. I'm old (there's still a "teen" slapped after my age number so I'll let you figure it out), I enjoy writing, playing video games, and annoying my family. And of course, my ultimate goal is to take over the world, after I finish whatever this is.

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